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HEYYY
i need people to talk to
but i barely ever check my emaill to see your guys' comments on my post
so i think that you amazingly supportive people should definatly add me on myspace
MYSPACE.COM/JESSARAVE
thats my url. i love you guys =]
also. my # is on my blog thinggyy so if you want to text im down for that too
anddd if you add me on myspace just message me not comment because i really dont need people finding out about this.
ILY<3
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[06 Jan 2010|05:22am] |
Its 5 am here :( I hate that I can't sleep. Messed up a little bit yesterday but kept it under my limit. Max was 500 calories. I had 80 last time I posted on here but then at about midnight I broke. My total for the day was 350 but I still feel a little bad. Nevermind. It's because i'm not sleeping. Haven't slept right in weeks now. I'll stay awake for 3 days then sleep for 12 hours and try to pretend everything is ok. Thing is the less sleep yo have the more chance of binging.
Haven't been able to go to the loo for anythign other than a pee in days :( sorry, gross. Anyone know what I can do? I have no salt and I don't really want to take lax as it wont really do anything until later on and I don't wanna get caught out at all lol.
Hope everyone is ok thou. I love this community so much. x
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[05 Jan 2010|09:08pm] |
someone said that starving/restriction is for lazy people
>=/ lets see how good you look with your fatass eating 5 meals a day and burning only 400 of those cals off
i hate people haha
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[06 Jan 2010|04:59am] |
hey everyone, haven't been on here for months. might get back into posting!
hope i can speak to you all at some point :) x
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[05 Jan 2010|08:55pm] |
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I found pictures of me last year. NSFW.
( Read more... )
<3
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Hangovers.
I crave so much food it's unbelievable. I have cut down on the drinking, but it was my bday yesterday and yup I ended up drunk. But ate really well that day. Just today has been shiteeee.
I've had about 250 cal's of plain rice noodles (to try satisfy my pasta craving) and then some bread stick prob 300 cal's. I suppose it's better than getting greasy takeaway, which I also REALLY want right now.
Any other non-hungover day I wouldn't even think about touching it. Stupid alcohol and your love hate relationship I have !!!
Next booze day is my bday party Saturday. I'm liquid fasting tonight till at least Friday night. If anyone else is in, great ! =)
Oh and tips for somewhat healthy foods that kill hangover cravings ?? xoxox
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[05 Jan 2010|09:47pm] |
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does anyone have any good exercise plans? i'm sick of mine and i'm too poor for a gym membership
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| Accomplished. |
[05 Jan 2010|11:41pm] |
Hello lovelies : )
I'm glad to hear that most of you had a good day!
If you didn't, just fuck it lol. Tomorrows a brand new day!
Today was a good day for me as well.
Reading all your posts at school kept me motivated to stay strong.
So I owe a big thanks to all of you : )
I am also glad to see that the arguing is over. I love this community and it made me so sad to see girls fighting!
I'm hoping that I can do the same tomorrow cause I reallyyyy need to get back down to my pre-vacation weight. I've been wearing skirts and dresses to hide the weight gain. Embarrassing I know lol. I'm excited for tomorrow because I find out whether I'm getting a gym membership.
My fingers are crossed!
Stay beautiful girls : )
xoxo
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[05 Jan 2010|11:39pm] |
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I got my period for the first time in a long time. It sucks, I completely forgot how horrible it was. And it means that all I did last night was watch a romantic movie and eat chocolate. I`m retarded. I`m going out of town tomorow morning. I`m terrified of running into my ex (he mooved to where I`m going), I was soooo much thinner when he left, and I would do my hair and try to look pretty everyday for him. Now it`s like I don`t care. Well not that I don`t care, but I don`t want other people to think I care. I care too much...
Lots of love<3
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[05 Jan 2010|11:06pm] |
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so ppl tell me that i'm pretty...and have a nice body...and all that good stuff even when i don't think so myself. but if these things are true, how come no guy seems to be attracted to me??? what am i doing wrong??? even tho ppl say they don't just SAY those things to make me feel better...what proof do they have that i actually AM pretty or have a desirable body? no guy seems interested!!!!!! :( :( :(
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[05 Jan 2010|11:21pm] |
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Is there a difference between fasting and not doing any exercise, or eating say 300 calories and burning 300 calories working out? What is better?
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| Do you think they know? |
[06 Jan 2010|12:42pm] |
Lots of times I read posts by girls saying that their Mom said something about their weight, or their dad said that it's ok to eat.
Posting about the weird things their parents say to them that relate to an eating disorder they claim they don't know about.
My parents do the same thing.
One time, I was standing at the sink, looking into it, with a bottle of water in my hand and my mom was like "ARE YOU PUKING??" in a panicky voice. I told my Dad I eat salads all the time and he said "obviously not a lot of them" and said that if I ate a pea, I would look pregnant.
It makes me wonder.... do they know?
Or do they just like teasing us?
And if they know [or at least think they know]
Why don't they do anything? Are they scared?
Well, anyways....
Today is Day 5 of ABC and I'll be switching today around with a fast.
I've been looking forward to this day for a while. I am going to a creative writing shinding at the library at 6.
Dinner is usually at 6. If I walk home, I will DEFINITELY miss dinner.
So why struggle to find something to eat for 100 calories [that'd be like.... 1 slice of cheese. Yeah right!] when I can just skip eating today all together!
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[06 Jan 2010|02:32pm] |
my beautiful boyfriend came over again this morning and he bought with him sugar free lozenges (cause im quite ill at the moment) called "stepsils' that appear to have no calories because he was trying to be supportive and sensitive (bless his soul).
be bought me stawberry, honey and lemon, menthol and black current and they taste really good.
theyre also a lax if you take too many.
i cant seem to find if they have any calories, does anyone know?
if not they are a GREAT trick because they taste just like sweets!
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[05 Jan 2010|07:32pm] |
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I this weird fascination with ultra-skinny legs, I want to be able to rock skinny jeans! I want my jeans that fit snugly now, to look like boyfriend jeans! (How sad it will be considering their Seven for All Mankind :( )
That's my ultimate goal, to have ultra-skinny legs! :D
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[05 Jan 2010|10:29pm] |
I'm sorry to be annoying girls.
But looking at those pictures and thinking that i was way smaller than that
is making me bawl my eyes out.
I feel like a complete pig.
-my boobs are fucking huge now
-my thighs jiggle when i walk
-and my stomach looks like a pile of fecal matter
fuck fuck fuck.
I'm eating no more than 500 cals tomorrow, and I'm going to work out for an hour.
fuck my life, fuck my body, fuck me
I completely let myself go
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[05 Jan 2010|10:19pm] |
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AHH! was I not supposed to post them straight to the page?!
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[05 Jan 2010|10:18pm] |
I've been smaller, but I dont think i have pictures....I'll check though!
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[05 Jan 2010|10:07pm] |
hey ladies, i just found a few photos of when i was tiny...
maybe some thinspo for me and you?
let me know if i should post them
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[05 Jan 2010|09:54pm] |
OK!
34 thinspos
5 reverse thinspos
and 14 before and afters all just posted on my page.
ppplleeaasseee check them out and give me your feedback..
love you all! staystrong.
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| 100 cal or less breakfast? |
[05 Jan 2010|10:50pm] |
know of any?
I have an extra 100 cals to play with tomorrow so I'm thinking I might have breakfast for once to get me started for the day.
Nighty-night. Sleep tight.
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